Spring Fever

The weather here in Virginia Beach is very unpredictable. One minute you have an ice storm that shuts the city down and then this week it's in the 70's and beautiful! This time of the year I get a little antsy. I am ready for spring and the warm weather. In Eccelesiates, God talks about there being a time for everything. So right now, I am living in the moments that God gives me because before long, it will be gone. I have some good friends at work that are moving on in their own lives and my life is changing, i don't like goodbyes.I know that I am going to have to say goodbye to them really soon and I don't want to. I want to savor every laugh, every smile, every memory because it will be gone soon. So right now in the midst of my antsyness, God is saying slow down and relax in the season that He gives.

No more pretending

I love pretending. I work with preschool kids and we have fun pretending to be a chef at a resturant or a builder with the blocks. I can't believe what kids come up with to pretend to be! I was listening at a song in my car one afternoon this week taking about becoming closer to God but on your way to getting closer with him, stop pretending to be a Christian, to talk like a Christian, to act like a Christian. The more I thought about the words and the message of this song, the more I realized God was downloading something in my spirit. Just like the kids I interact with everyday, who pretend because that's the way they learn I play pretend with God alot. I raise my hands in worship, sometimes I say all the right things. I pretend to have it all together in front of Him but hello! He knows me. I want be raw and real before God because He is to me. And the amazing thing about God is HIS GRACE! No matter what I do, His grace looks into my eyes and says I still love you no matter what, let me pick you up and experience me, drink from me! So I am challenging myself, NO more pretending, why would I need to?

In a rut routine

Today God popped something in my lap that I had not even considered until I began to let it sit in me for awhile. God reminded me of Lazaurus in the bible. He was very close to Jesus and he died, Lazaurus sister was questioning why jesus didn't come sooner to heal him. The only time in scripture that jesus cries is when Lazaurus dies. It is puzzling to me why this time, why this man. He must have been important to jesus. The part the God was telling me was leaving dead things behind but to rise up in what I want for you. After lazauras had been dead for a couple of days then Jesus raises him up. Imagine how that must have been for Lazaurus. It makes you think was Lazaurus differnt physically after that. of course mentally and emotionally he was different. I like to think that dead things stayed with the tomb Lazuarus came out of and a whole new perspective and change came when Jesus called him out by name. Even in the rut routine I find myself spinning in some days, I can hear God calling my name, "Come out, Come out!" Let those dead things in your life stay dead, let God call you out that thing that feels like it's hanging on for dear life. Let Him call you to new life.